Like I want to jump off a cliff. Cliff dive. Why such feelings of futility? Wasn't it just a few days ago I was overjoyed with the greatest feeling, the best day of my life? Father, please allow me to focus my attention and energy. Harness me oh great master and use my strengths for your good father. Focus me.
I understand that I put pressure on myself, but I also put a willingness to grow and excel. Yes there is a time and place for everything, and today I want to continue to be a better human.
I need to journal, articulate my fears, dreams, hopes, disappointments.... then analyze, evaluate, and move forward.